so i kinda really ditched xanga for a while. hmm so ppl prolly dont read this anymore but still.

i was gonna go around everyone's site n leave a mess but i though its better if i sum it up here n no its not in order.

aya!!! srry for not callin u kno how i get lazy wit the fone. i still luv ya!! call me sumtime. and no that rumor is not tru. ill tell u the whole story later =)

dawn, i miss ya girl, hows college goin? when u come to lf gimme a call we'll go hang out. i go home almost every weekend. talk to ya soon!

sammm how u been havent heard from u in a while. workin hard huh =) have u gone back home? callll meeee. muah

tripleee n mimi da wangsta we really really have to make plans to hang out 4real this time. there's two blank pages in my yrbook!!!!! n yes ill get u those pix someday hahh =P

janet i feel so unspecial that u found urself a new bulgarian ~sigh~ just remember the special moments we shared and our sexy cookies. lol dont worrie i still luv ya. call call call

lillie, girl its really hard to keep up wit the pms moods u have when i dont see u in school every day lol jusssst kiddin. ya kno i luv ya. say hi to all ur bf's for me =P n go home once in a while!!

yel, angelica, n vicky, ur cool u stayed home! u fdu pplz are the bestest hahah. i really will come visit one time. maybe next semester ill have fri's off or sumthin.

mary grace n julie, havent heard from u guys for a while i hope ur havin fun at college n bein good  ;) 
unlike sum other ppl (ima get beat up for that hahh)lol juuusst kiddin

n i cant miss mentioning vas, dhabu, sneha even tho they dont read this. i miss u guys!! i got too used to the summer darnit =) muah!!

i wonder wut happened to dalia...anyone kno?

if i missed anyone dont feel bad i didnt put too much thought into this =) leave a comment n yell at me

theres sum things i left out but...sorry xanga is not that special =P

[	mood	|	moody	]
[	music	|	Slavi Trifonov - Prima Patriot	]

i looove this song its so cute ahh (read below) and if ya wanna hear it click here

Slavi Trifonov - No, No and No
Every time, when I become quiet
Actually I’m speaking with you
Actually I’m telling you a million things
But then again I’m quiet
Every time, when I become quiet
Actually I ask “Do you want me by your side?”
Actually I hold you and whisper
But then again I’m quiet
Of fear that I might hurt you, I’m quiet.

Chorus:
And I can’t decide
And I don’t want to make a mistake
Should I speak now or no?
No, no, no, no and no

Every time, when I become quiet
I turn back time
But I cannot change it
And I’m only quiet…
Every time, when I become quiet
Actually I’m saying
That I cant be without you
But you cant know that
And I’m only quiet…
Of fear that I might hurt you, I’m quiet.

Chorus:
And I can’t decide
And I don’t want to make a mistake
Should I speak now or no?
No, no, no, no and no

( BG text )

his album is pretty good - i like the last song a lot too

Slavi Trifonov - Prima Patriot 2004
1. Domachine
2. Bog visoko, tzar daleko (God high, ruler far)
3. Ne, ne i ne! (No, no and no!)
4. Shiroko zatvoreni ochi (Wide closed eyes)
5. Ain't no sunshine
6. I wanna feel you
7. Bolero - Balkan version
8. Ah kade e moito libe (Oh where is my love)
9. Bulgari - yunatzi (Bulgarian heroes)
10. Bez sluntze za teb i za men (Without sunshine for you and me)
11. Slushai matzko (Listen chick)
12. Tova e luja (This is a lie)
13. Profesorsko horo (A professor's horo)
14. Vecherai, Rado (Have dinner, Rado)
15. Tolkova (This much)

[	mood	|	sleepy	]
[	music	|	Shte Ostana - Maya & Magapasa	]

i feel like im living someone else's life
these are someone else's memories, someone else's future
kinda like a movie...
i kinda wanna push all limits just to see wut happends...maybe for fun...maybe cuz i dont really care...see how much i can get away with
i used to hold grudges before when sumone pissed me off n it wasnt resolved. i dont even bother wasting my time doin that anymore (most of the time). is that good or bad? i dont care enough anymore to hold onto a grudge if that makes any sense.

i dont feel like being careful who i trust anymore...so ill just pretend the whole world is honest and means well.
i've decided that fites are good once in a while as long as it gets u somewhere better than where u started from. that first one is always a bitch thow.

im gonna look back on this entry and think wut the hell was i on...its one of those "i just woke up n my head is all screwd up" kinda things

presentations day was fun...except for that part where i had to present...i got the biggest accent ever,,,sometimes i hate my immigrantness even thow i do use it as an excuse for everything =P

yesterday i got yelled at because it was raining...yes it was my fault there was thunder n lightning n water commin out of the sky. dhabu was laffin at me but i just think my parents forgot how to talk normally. i admit it would be pretty cool to control the weather but lets get back to reality...

k bye now

decided to keep my xanga n lj somewhat similarly updated... so here

[	mood	|	too contradicting for one word	]
[	music	|	the tune of kal ho na ho in my head	]

what can i say about prom, it was great, so much fun seriously i wish we could do it all over again. im happie i decided not to go wit a date cuz i got to just hav fun without bein conserned about what the other person is doin. everyone looked so pretty, and handsome awww. i want pix!!!

before prom...oh goodness...the prepatation was exhausting ahh i wish i never hav to go thru that again. we were late so we got only a couple of pix. some ppl didnt seem to happy about the addition to the pic but um... tough.

afterprom was cool too except for that part where a bunch of us had no idea what was goin on after the comedy club cuz no one would tell us. so after chasing ppl down, sendin emails that never got responces, and asking the same question like 10 times during the afterprom itself we figured out that the limo driver wasnt told he has to drop us off at our houses...uhoh...and ofcourse we (the ppl that were not taking part in kaavya's sleepover) had nowhere else to go so came the figuring out of directions and driving around NJ all nite. not complaining i liked the drive, very relaxing but i would have liked to know what was goin on more than 5 min before it happened especially cuz i did pay the same as everyone for my nite of fun. thanx for being considerate...so did the limo driver too lol anyway everyone got dropped off...and me mimi and eee went to fair lawn to eee's house to stay for the day. it was light outside by then cuz our stop got pushed to last but thats ok it was pretty cool havin the whole limo to ourselves for a while.

im sorta thinkin goin in the limo was a mistake thow. i woulda been equally fine with goin with a car...and meeting up wit ppl at the comedy club. the limo shit added unnecessary drama and travel time to my nite.

after that (6 am) it was a mix of half drunk half high from no sleep talks, uncontrollable laffing, 3 hr long movie, random pass-outs, my unusual hyperness (we didnt sleep much), eee's pillow, and mimi's add. hah good times good times. 128 pix to prove it.

anyway more about prom later cuz it needs to really sink in before i can make a meaningful entry about it.

lately ive had couple of realizations:
its really sad to see how sum ppl are so self centered and stuck up. at first it bothered me cuz i kno i was nothing but nice, but then i realized its a waste of my time. i do not need the attitude from someone who's biggest worries concern their own comforts and whims. keep thinkin ur better than everyone but remember ur in this position right now because somebody somewhere thought about somethig besides themselves. just hope life doesnt turn on ya one day so u learn how it is on the other side the hard way.

i really admire the ppl who saw how wrong that was. u kno who u are. luv u guys

woaaa who the hell hacked my xanga!!!! i havent been on here for a whiiiiiiiiile now but that background was so not mine lol. that was just horrible. anyway thats all bye